off to the beautiful hawaiian islands!!!

My family +3 officially departs for maui in the morning. I am so very excited!!!! Megan is bringing Lindsay, Austin is bringing Beau and Paige is meeting us there from Chicago!!! Ahhh its been over a year since I have since her lovely face and I miss her so much!!! The last time I saw her was a complete surprise when I found her sitting on my bed for my 18th birthday. It was AMAZING. I still cannot believe mom pulled it off but she did and I was so excited to get to bring her on our family getaway =)
So the next time I blog it will probably be after the trip. I will (hopefully) be all tanned, relaxed, and very happy to have all of july and august ahead of me. I already cannot believe it is the mid-to-end of june!!
Were renting a house since there are in fact 8 of us. yes.. chaos is a given. but i've never looked more forward to two 13-year-old boys, and four sassy older girls sharing a roof for close to 2 weeks. plus mom and dad.. that makes 8!!! here we go...
Being home has been amazing. Although mother nature and I are in a fight, it has been great to spend time with my friends and just lounge around the house and have plenty of lazy days ;)
so ALOHAA =) and look forward to a long post about my adventures on the beaches of gorgeous Hawaiiiii.. !!!

ps
side note: a few days ago I came to the realization that I am in fact 19. and even though to lots that doesn't sound very old, I'm already having problems accepting the fact that this truly is my last year as a teenager. I KNOW completely random and very odd.. but it's been on my mind and I wanted to document it. This year better be and good one where I sudden find like the meaning to life or meet my husband or something truly great because I can't turn 20 next year not feeling any wiser.

lots to say..

this is a list of running current events. my thoughts are scattered, please bear with me♥

- family vacation in Hawaii in 4 days :) THAT means I get to see paige so so soon... it has been over a year!
- nannying is going well... i can tell the summer will be full of stories, ha
- trying to keep a positive attitude with my new diet/allergies/way of life
- went to Kate's graduation tonight, congrats kate!!
- get to see megan p for lunch tomorrow =) major catching up to do!
- trying to get in some tanning appt.'s in before hawaii so i have some sort of base
- so nice being home to see familiar faces!
- mom had a successful surgery on her hand to remove her sits
- my car is fixed...! all of those bumps and bruises that a year at college can do to it, ha
- the 1st semester of my scrapbook is complete! one more semester to go! (its looking really good ;) )



rip abbey ♥ you had such a wonderful life and I will miss you sleeping on my bed. I love you and you will forever be remembered.

just call me nanny

just got back from nannying noon-five. wooh! Quite a job! Anyone who believes being a nanny is easy should try it sometime.
So, realizing that this is probably going to be the bulk of my summer weekdays I thought it would be fun to keep a side story going of my day to day nanny "journaling."
hopefully some of my experiences will be entertaining :)

june 13th, 53 degrees and raining

Okay I officially fed up with Washington and this ridiculous June we are having. I have seen the sun maybe 3 times since I have been home? and the grey looming clouds are all in all depressing. I think I have written in previous entries about having a weather dependent personality. That said, countless days of rain are taking a toll on my emotions.
On a happier note, I got a NANNY JOB!!!!! and have a summer of watching two adorable kids! Abigail is 9 going on 10 at the end of july and Wyatt is 7 and going into 2nd grade next year. They are so cute and I'm so excited to get closer to both this summer.
So nanning is about 4 days a week (~5 hours at a time) and I'm also working at St. Mary's every Sunday and Thursday.
Putting aside the bad weather, I have lots to keep me busy until the end of August!
Off to see my precious two-some! =)

limits

you never know your limits until they're broken.
after that happens, you learn to pick up the pieces, see where you went wrong, and understand that nothing will ever feel quite the same.
after you accept those terms, you spend the rest of your life trying to find peace with your past; those limits that were tested and pushed.
i admire the man who said something along the lines of.. it is not the obstacles that you encounter in life that are the hard part, it's the living your life part that proves to be the toughest challenge.

i have just begun the search, and am thoroughly terrified.

quiet

I should be sleeping but of course the computer seems so much more appealing to me at the moment. Sometimes I find peace when everyone else is asleep and the house is completely quite. No one is talking, yelling, or on the phone. TV's are off, kitchen is dark, hall lamps are dimmed. The only noise that keeps me comforted is the clock which rings every quarter hour; something that no matter the hour of the day it keeps things on track, maintaining order of our ever changing time.
Solitude is a funny word when looked at carefully.
>>the state of being or living alone; seclusion.
Then I wonder, seclusion from what? I would have to argue that this definition is only as deep as the sentence fragments it is made of. I do not believe in total seclusion, how can there be such thing?
You are never completely void of your thoughts..
feelings that cannot be logically defined but only emotionally understood.

so good to see familiar faces!

Now with my first year under my belt it is so nice to take advantage of the fact that I know so many more people.
Just last night Jackie and I drove up to Seattle, had a nice dinner on the waterfront and went to Jessen's grad open house. Four or five delta's were there.. it was so good to be home but at the same time feel like those who you spent all year getting to know are not too far away. Shaina is up from Bend, OR visiting her boyfriend and so they were there, Aimee who lives in Seattle and actually went to high school with Ali was there, and Danielle who is another sorority sister was there too!
Friday hil and I went to have lunch with Shaina and then she ended up spending the whole day with me. We picked up cakes for Hil's Dad's birthday, she got to shower in a safe (non-awkward) house and we went out on the boat :) it was so good to see her!
Her and Liza are definitely coming up to visit this summer because I don't think I can wait until next semester when they come for a weekend. They are both transferring to U of O : / ...so visits are so special to me!
I got a package in the mail yesterday and Liza sent me The Traveler's Wife, a novel aka according to both the most AMAZING LOVE STORY OF ALL TIME. SO will THAT rave review it's going to have to be one of my summer reads. yah!
all for now---

oh ps! finally figured out how to upload a pic on to this blog thing... it only took me a year to figure out! AND I have officially started scrap booking... 4 pages in! ♥

and pss: HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY JESSUPP. one more year and you can (legally) hit the bars! ;)