changes make you stronger

It feels like this weekend has gone on forever! Thursday night we went over the to delta house to celebrate Heather, one of our sisters, turning 21!! We had a little something for her before all the over 21 year olds went to the bars.... thats going to be me in less than 2 years!! :) I know mom is just thrilled at the thought of that, hahaha ;) BUT it was fun, she was definitely enjoying herself and it was a fun way to get everyone together in a relaxing non-meeting like setting to start this semester off!
Friday I did laundry, a white and color load, read out in the sun, and ran with LJ. Were being so much more adventurous lately and exploring all these new routes around campus, when the weather is this nice I just can't do the gym.
Friday I also had a meeting with my tennis coach to talk about some things I have been conflicted with. Going into this season I felt differently then I did last year. I don't know why this is, but nevertheless I'm just not as happy. I am usually a very happy person, so it is really weird/disconcerting for me to feel kinda 'off.' When I realized that something was wrong I sat down and thought about the different aspects of my life and how they make me feel. Thinking about tennis made me uneasy and I tried to understand why. I realized that I don't get as excited about practice anymore, I don't look forward to hitting. Tennis (especially at a collegiate level) should be a privilege and it has started to feel like a chore. I am still trying to understand the root of these feelings because tennis has been such a big part of my life for so long. I have always looked at it as something I want to do, not something I have to do.
I know people change, and college is all about new experiences and finding yourself, but I just never expected my passion for the sport to ever falter. I don't think it's a question about my passion, but maybe just one about timing? At this point in my life I don't feel like being on the team was something that added to my life positively maybe? To wrap up this long winded paragraph, I am taking a step back from tennis this season. My coach was very supportive, emphasizing that my well-being is more important to him overall, and even though I got emotional (I am a girl) I think it was important for him to see how upset I was and the good place this is coming from.I chose to address the team myself, and all of the girls were just as supportive. I was definitely anxious about talking about it because since it is something I am so tied to it was obviously important to me that I conveyed that.
So that was the bulk of my friday! Lots going on, lots to think about, and I think its been so confusing and consuming thats part of the reason why I have not felt the desire to update, but I'm back! Here and ready to go!
Last night we were definitely quite the party-hoppers. First we went over to Jill and Elysia's (two seniors in delta.. LOVE them) to hang out for a while and then when to a baseball party and then soccer. Uhem. Some extremely attractive boys back from abroad... very glad we made that our last stop ;)
Today LJ and I watched Independence Day and I worked on some poetry homework. Were going to dinner kinda soon.... 6ish. Delta meeting tonight at 7pm... RUSH IS NEXT WEEK AND IM ON THE HUNT FOR A LITTLE SIS!!!!!! :) :) I crafted clothes for her all break and am so excited for the upcoming process!!!!
Thats all for now... a lot to digest!


Congratulations Tiffany, Kory & Avery on the arrival of Jackson Jonathan this morning!!!!!!! I could not be happier for your family and CANNOT wait to see more of him and highly anticipated pictures on your blog (which is basically something I read as often as I brush my teeth, shower, etc.) ♥ ♥