...we're heading into our 20's?

Today my best friend in the whole wide world turns 20. Yes, 20. So, I'm only slightly okay with this, mainly because Lizzie turning 20 means that I'm up in less than 6 months. It seems like a big jump from the teenage years and the sheer number frightens me to death. 20 means a lot of things... being alive for 2 decades, I can legally order a drink in a year, I am no longer a teenager, it sounds older, and the difference between 19 and 20 sounds stranger, like there's a bigger gap (a gap that, I am certainly not ready to bridge.) There are many things I need to do before I turn 20 and am no where near close to completing my mental list. SO, I was thinking about it and if I'm not ready by the time april rolls around I think I'm just going to stick to 19. That sounds like a safer number and 20 just seems too old. I still like to do the same things I did when I was 16; gossip, paint my toes nails, text boys, and have americas next top model marathons... nothings really changed. And the other problem I have with the number is that I feel like responsibility will quickly follow. So I thought the whole shunning birthday's thing was going to wait until I hit my mid-30's but, here I am, not wanting to commit to this new chapter. Regardless of this internal battle, I am very excited that it's my bestie's birthday!! (And thank God it is NOT mine) ;) I am so thankful for her and everything she gives me, from impromptu care packages to staying on the phone with me while I vent for hours about trival boys issues. I love you her to death and hope she has an AMAZING day today =) wish I was there to celebrate with you! (and if it wasn't for reviews and finals I would be there!) XOXO
On another note, I finished Twilight and am now 150 pages into New Moon. Wow. Is all I have to say. Jackie went with me to see the movie last night and I'm officially stalking Edward. He is insanely gorgeous and I pretty much want to marry him. And that is a pretty bold statement considering I am extremely picky. But, yes. Well done, Edward Cullen. However, currently I am depressed at my point in New Moon, and I need Edward back in my life so I hope he comes back soon! I read whenever I get the chance, before class, walking to breakfast, before I go to bed, in the car, at delta meetings. Its a problem and my friends are constantly making me very aware of the fact that I'm always caring it around. Did you know the author, Stephanie Meyer is in the movie? In the second scene in the diner she's at the counter and they say something like here you go stephanie... anyways, interesting fact. And there are also these Team Jacob vs. Team Edward sides being taken. And I want to make it clear that I am definitely setting up camp on the Edward side, are we kidding?
Christmas time in Southern California doesn't quite strike the same chord as it does in Washington. There are no evergreens, no cold, bitter air, no houses fully decked out for the occasion. I came back from classes today in jean capri's and a t-shirt, tying a scarf around my neck just because I felt it was necessary. I just got back from my lovely rainy state and nevertheless miss it amazingly this time of year.
Another problem these Twilight books are posing; for some strange reason (and I never expected this) the books are creating a mental block for me and my own work. I sat down to write these past two nights, and nothing. I've never been the type to struggle with what to write, but when it comes to my own work, my mind is so pre-occupied with these books and their engrossing plots, I can't seem to stream line anything of my own. I am extremely annoyed that my brain does not have the creative capacity to process and produce both my own work and ♥edward cullen♥ This poses quite the problem because my final portfolio is due in Fiction next tuesday and if I don't finish New Moon by then, I'm going to burn it.
off for a run!
happy holidays!!! I'm playing christmas music starting tonight!! (Hils going to love me) haha :)